i know you can't stand my wandering hands

I could probably speak all poetically but right now it's simple what I guess I need to say. Today I was watching the I Don't Care video and hit me. Everything has changed so much. This little bit of obviousness was brought to my attention was brought out after I got finished watching it and decided to watch Grand Theft Autumn and Sugar We're Going Down. I got teary, even, becuase we've all grown so much. I can remember thinking listening to Take This To Your Grave was so hardcore and stuff. Now it's a record that means so much to me that I can't really put it to words. I hope I don't sound like some stupid fangirl right now, it just makes me a bit emotional because, blahblahblah the band made me who I am. Not in some heart touching-saved-my-life way, but in a way where if I didn't start listening to Fall Out Boy, I would've walked down a completely different path. They opened me up to so much more music and opportunities that I wouldn't have found if I hadn't started supporting them and going to shows. I wouldn't have the best friends I do now because I wouldn't have been able to start a conversation with all the common interests we have. Looking at my boys now, they've grown so much since back then that it's crazy. Some ways good, some ways bad. I feel guilty, too, because they've done so much for me with out even knowing it; opening me up to great music, letting me meet amazing people; and I don't even listen to them that frequently anymore. So thanks for everything, guys, this sounds so cheesy and I feel like a fangirl but you really have done a lot more than make great music.

i'm bringin' sassyback.

the past few days have been pretty lazy.
i've been sick; in more ways than one.
mostly physically, though. downloaded a shitload of new music.

few suggestions:
I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You-The Rocket Summer
Polaroid-Shwayze
How Will I Know (whitney cover)-Hit The Lights
Can Anyone Really Love Young-The Higher
I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You-Black Kids

The Morning Light album is wonderful, you should probably pick it up. It's been crashing my ears on repeat since it came out. Lovely boys, too.

Sassyback with Cobra, FTSK, Hit The Lights, and Sing it Loud in about two weeks! Extremely excited. It's one of the best line ups I've ever seen.

so much love in you.

everything that has found it's way to my ears lately has caused headaches. "but they couldn't touch you, no." i care so much about things these days that it causes me not to care at all. i make romances with pillows. catching and storing all of my thoughts and wishes for a rainy day. i can never find that star, but you could help me. you always saw what i couldn't. we could break the pattern and think a merry little thought for once, making our way to Neverland and building our mistakes into the most misunderstood, perfect little life.

this place in my mind should be called Foreverland, 'cause we'd be young and together forever, not having to worry about growing up to disappoint ourselves for the hundreth time.

so forever, because never breaks hearts.

turn your back, 'cause you'll never understand.

i want a person made of good luck.
i want a person who's arms feel like summer.
i'd never be able to hold on to that person, because
i'm made of every mistake.
i'm full of rainy days and fingers falling to places they shouldn't.
i'm full of tears and pieces of things they all leave behind.
i'm almost worth it.
i just want to know more than i can.
things can change, i guess.
and i'm okay with that today.
i might even be okay with it tomorrow.

wait, my mind tends to lose it's way

"wait, my mind tends to lose it's way. everytime it comes around i let it slip away. i'm sorry i became this cardiac parade."

i was thinking the other day and realized
we are responsible for everyone else's wishes.
everytime we blow away a dandelion, we give more wishes a chance to grow.
maybe one day you'll wish off one i've made.
but isn't it so hard to believe in me, when i don't believe in anything?
i've got so many things to say but there aren't any ears that will listen.
while your clothes are broken in, i'm just broken.